The heart-led path will take you places you could never have imagined.
Shifting your sense of consciousness from your brain to your heart changes a lot of things. It takes awhile for your conscious awareness to realize it’s not limited to emotions and thoughts. The heart brings to bear the power of moral discernment and it injects a wide range of new internal experiences. You may be so used to having your intellect in the driver’s seat that you struggle to classify or relate some of this new input to something you recognize.
Since early yesterday I’ve had this odd sense that something was disconnected from my awareness. For the past two days I’ve been trying to discern what this odd sensation means. What am I supposed to do with this?
There’s no pain associated with this. It’s more like some peculiar thing that previously worked like a means of perception has simply stopped working. A part of me is searching for that channel of input that is now gone. It’s conspicuous by its absence. I don’t think it matters very much; for all I know I could have been interference, an input I really didn’t need. Still, it’s a very odd thing to be left with a gap there.
So I’ve been praying for some enlightenment about this, and nothing has come of it. I was hoping I could sleep on it, and perhaps something in my dreams would give me a clue. That didn’t happen. I kept waiting all day, and still there’s nothing I can identify — good, bad or indifferent. Normally it wouldn’t be worth writing about, but it occurs to me some of you deal with the same odd sensations in your soul. All I can tell you right now is that God is still very much the Master of my life and I’m quite content that it’s all good in the long run. Still, this thing is a puzzle.
Wait… now I get it. Just now I realized it was an interest or appetite for something. Now it’s gone. Yeah, I know I won’t miss that.